Sunday, July 10, 2011
It's hot in here!
Menopause sucks! It's kind of like the first 3 months of pregnancy. Not the happy glow of 'oooh I'm bringing a new life into the world', but the nausea, sleeplessness, too warm, hormones raging' part. Hot flashes are not over in a flash. Night sweats that make you change your clothing or discard it all together. I have never been so unhappy in my world, in my life, in myself as I have been these past few months. I see the amazing blessings in my life and they fill me up, and yet, my mood swings are terrible and I have been difficult to live with. I think the worst part of this is that my memory is gone. I can't remember where I put my cell phone, keys, who I wrote that check to, whether or not I fed the cats, that I need to do laundry, pick up a fly bonnet for the horse, or just where I put that list of things to remember to do. This frustrates me daily. Taking something for it is really not an option. I strive daily to find some peace and be grateful and to have a happier outlook. I'm trying to believe it can't last much longer. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.